Henry 1999-2009

Henry went to kitty heaven this morning. I got him in '99 when I moved into my apartment in Lubbock. I wanted to name him Bob because I love the name Bob but Amanda said his name should be Henry because he looked like an English gentleman. He was so small, he fit in the palm of my hand. He loved sleeping in bed with me, right next to me on the other pillow like he was human. When I got married to Charles he would crawl between us and push Charles out of bed because that was his place. He has been through so much with me. A number of boyfriends and then finally Charles. I moved him so many times and it never fazed him. He always just went with the flow. I had Cassie and he was never mean to her. When she first started walking, she would grab his tail and he would pull her around the house. She could hit or pull his fur and he just laid there and took it. He hated Charles so much and the feeling was mutual. It was actually kinda funny. I am going to miss him so much. I will always remember him and how he always wanted to lay right on top of me even though he was 22 pounds of muscle. I love you Henry and you will always be my baby.

Henry

OK so I have to make a big decision. After I paid out the nose to have 8 of my cats teeth pulled, the vet told me he has feline diabetes. So I looked it up online to see what I was going to have to deal with. First I have to have him tested again since they tested him during his surgery. That is around $100 for the testing. Then there will be insulin that I have to give him everyday. That is $50 a bottle. The bottle could last up to 3 months but until they get him regulated I will keep having to buy bottles at $50 a pop. Then I have to buy a blood checker for $50 plus strips so that I can test him everyday. Then lastly I have to buy special food and I have no idea how much that is. Can I do this, can I pull money out of places I don't have? Can I deal with a two year old and a sick cat? What if I have another child? But can I put him down, do I have the strength to put my baby who I have had since he was six weeks old down? Every time I think about it I start to cry. I have prayed about this but I still don't have a clear answer. Pet lovers are going to be the only ones who understand what I am going through. If you are reading this and are a praying person, please pray that I will know what to do. I am making myself sick over this and need to make a decision soon.

Random Everyday Pictures

Ok first thing is first. My coke diary. Friday: 1 coke, but first thing in the morning. Saturday: 2 cokes, Sunday: 2 cokes. I am getting better, just down to 2 a day. This weeks goal 1 a day.

Here is a picture of me loving cokes.

Now on to things people care about. Cute pictures of my daughter.

She loves wearing other peoples hats.

And shoes.

It is like condors...here is a picture of Charles and his cat Flik, oh and Cassie is there too.

She loves to pour imaginary coffee.

She loves cooking on her grill.

She makes wonderful hot dogs.

She loves her dollhouse.

Baby is always on the potty.

And daddy is always sleeping.

Here is a picture of my nephew, Brendan on his 2nd birthday.

Coca Cola

If you know me at all you know I love Coke. I drink at least two a day but most the times it is three. My first one is usually around 9:00 am, then if I am done with the morning one I have one with lunch. Most days I can then wait till dinner to have my last one but on bad days I have to get one around 3:00 pm. I do try to keep the habit around 4. Well the last couple of days I have decided I drink too many cokes and am going to try to cut back. Today was my first day. My first coke of the day was opened at 1:41 pm. That is really good for me. Of course the minute I opened the can and drank a gulp I thought, there are so many other things I could be addicted to. Drugs, cigarettes, etc. All I am addicted to is a drink. My mom was like me, I am don't think she drank as many as I do but she had a coke first thing in the morning. Well she got really lucky and got an awful stomach virus and didn't drink cokes for like two weeks. Well by the time she got over the virus, she decided that she went this long, she might as well just quit all together. Well, I need a bad stomach virus, because I think that is the only way I could truly quit. So day one: first coke was at 1:41pm. Tomorrow I am going to try to go all the way till dinner. I want to be healthy and drink more water so after this coke is done, I am going to go drink a glass of water. If you are reading this and are a praying person, pray that Kara has the willpower to quit drinking cokes. Now I am off to finish my wonderful, thirst quinching, burns while drinking coke. I will miss you my friend.

Sick Cat

My cats is very sick. Henry is about 10 years old and has always been a big cat. He was 22 pounds in his prime. Charles and I noticed the other day that he looked like he had dropped some weight. Well he has, he is now down to 16 pounds. That is significant weight loss in a cat. The vet looked and said he had an infection in his mouth. His teeth are rotting out of his head and causing an infection in his mouth. So I asked how much is it going to cost to pull the bad teeth and get rid of the infection. She told me the high price would be around $1000. Holy crap, I don't have an extra $1000. So then she said that we would just have to put 30% down. That is still $300 which I don't just have an extra $300 laying around. I have a house payment, a car payment, a daycare payment and a daughter and husband who insist on eating. I tried to get them to quit for a little bit but they won't. They are so selfish. So now I have to come up with $300 so that my cat doesn't die. I can't get him to keep any food down. He just keeps throwing all his food up. I just want to cry. I love my cat but I have to buy groceries and pay bills. Of course the vet looks at you like lets just set up the appointment and I am like if I had an extra $300 I would cut my throat and die rich. The only thing that would make this worse if it had happened around Christmas. At least there is that. I am going to have to go get a second job to pay for my cat. OK I got that off my chest. Please pray that God will give me an epiphany.

Ok new pics

Here are some pictures of Cassie that I took today. We got to go outside and play since it was such a nice day.

She is finally smiling for the camera. She even says cheese now.

Daddy took some cute pictures of us together.

Lasik

So I got Lasik surgery on Saturday, February 21st. I was pretty nervous because come on they are doing surgery on your eyes. I know that they have perfected it and there is a small chance that something can go bad but what if you were the small chance. Plus my left eye was so blind that it took longer to run the laser on it. Also Charles was not my idea of comfort. He sat in the room with me while I was waiting joking about that when he runs lasers they can cut through metal. But it was okay because they gave me Valium before the surgery to calm me down. The surgery itself did not take long. Before the surgery they put I think 5 different eye drops in your eyes. They stung and it was not very comfortable. They surgery was the easiest part. After the surgery, I was so loopy from the Valium. The doctor came in to talk to me but all I heard was blah, blah, blah. Good thing Charles was there, he did do a good job of listening to all the instructions. We got in the car and all I wanted was a hamburger. For those that don't know me, I am not a huge fan of hamburgers, but I wanted one so bad. So Charles drove to Whataburger and got me a hamburger and onion rings. When we got home, I ate that whole hamburger which is very weird because I can never eat a whole one. As soon as I got done, I went to bed and slept for I am not too sure. Now with the Lasik that doctors do now, you can see nearly as soon as they are done. I didn't get to do that one. I had to have the other Lasik that takes longer to recover from. I still can't see perfectly yet but the doctor says that it is normal and it gets better and better. Problem was I had to lay in bed for 3 days with nothing to do. I couldn't watch TV or read a book because it hurt my eyes and you can only sleep so much. So Charles said to download a book from iTunes. I ended up downloading 2 but it was worth the money because I could keep my eyes closed but not be bored to tears. Cassie didn't handle it all well. Her whole schedule was thrown off and she didn't get to have as much mommy time. She is very clingy right now since I have been up. I can actually drive now which is good because it was hard catching a ride to work and back home.
It is weird not wearing contacts or glasses. I still wake up every morning looking for my glasses and when I go to bed I try to take my contacts out. As soon as I can see much better it will be so worth it. The only thing I have trouble seeing right now is distance. Which I know my eyes are getting better because I can read a book again without my eyes hurting. It was expensive but Charles even said that it was worth it because my contacts and glasses are so expensive so it will pay for itself in a couple of years. All in all I know I will forget the all the bad and remember the good because I will be able to see the good everyday.